Obviously I am not very good at keeping secrets because I can’t even wait until the “socially correct” 12 weeks to announce, or in the “infertility blog” world people post daily updates about where they are in their two week wait or update about the first minute they pee on a stick and get a positive… I mean I still can’t even believe I am growing a little human inside of me. I have been going back and forth about posting our news for some time now. I would NEVER want a social media post to hurt anyone’s feelings. I have been there. I have been on the other side of pregnancy and birth announcements. There is so much heartache along with happiness that comes with each person sharing their joyous news. I am posting this to give hope to any woman out there who is in the midst of their struggle. There is hope. Don’t give up.
IVF #2 was a success for us. I almost gave up. I almost didn’t want to go through the process again. We would not be here today… 9 weeks pregnant, if we would have given up on our dream to become parents.
Lets back up since I have not posted since our transfer… Here is what has been happening… I will try and be brief:
We transferred two genetically perfect embryos. One boy and one girl. The clinic wanted me to wait until my beta blood test for results, but come on, who can wait 13 days to find out if the process was a success or not! So I decided to test at 6dp5dt because I was having a little cramping and some brown spotting. POSITIVE, what the what. On a first response and a digital. A freaking positive. Now, I have never had a positive ever before, so you can imagine my shock. I thought seeing those two lines would make me feel at ease, but it opened up another can of emotions and ease was not one of them. Flash forward 2 days when I could finally tell my husband, (he had been at work and I thought the news would be best shared in person). He was so happy. It is funny though. Both of our reactions were nothing like I had dreamt up in my head… He was more excited and I was less… Hard to explain.
Then came my beta blood tests… my first one was over 700! Which is extremely high for a first beta. The clinic was looking to see at least 100 closer to 200. That made me feel a little more at ease and it also made me think we were having twins, until…. A week later I woke up in the middle of the night and went to the bathroom only to find bright red blood in my undies. It was the scariest thing ever. To think something bad was happening after all we had been through. I was able to talk to the on call nurse and she told me not to worry, that bleeding can be very normal in early pregnancy as long as I didn’t have horrible cramping- which I did not and the bleeding lasted for only a few wipes. The next day they sent me for a beta blood test and progesterone test to make sure my levels were ok and moved my ultrasound up for a day later. Good news… beta was over.. oh my gosh I can’t remember now… but it was really high still and progesterone was normal too… thank God. The next day I had my ultrasound. I was so nervous to look at that screen…. Low and behold ONE healthy baby pea with an amazing heartbeat! They don’t know where the blood came from or why I had bleeding, but said it was very common in early pregnancy. (I was thinking maybe it was my body getting rid of the other embryo…. which makes me a little sad, but it is also hard to be sad when we have finally gotten what we had always prayed about, a healthy baby). Obviously we do not know the sex now because only one took. I don’t think I want to find out either. There have been no surprises in this journey so I think not knowing the baby’s sex until he/she pops out would be fun!
From there things seem to have taken off… I have all the classic symptoms of pregnancy. I am sooooo sick. The “all day sickness” as I like to call it settled in around 7.5 weeks. Mine seems to be worse in the afternoon and at night. We had another ultrasound and baby is growing perfectly. It now has little arms and legs and is moving around. It blows my mind how fast they grow in there! For all you ladies symptom spotting or want to know if something is “normal” let me tell you… I have had pretty much everything you read about and if you are experiencing it, it is probably normal…
-spotting at 6dp5dt
-cramping on and off through entire first trimester so far- this is normal as there is a lot of growth and action going on in your uterus.
-fatigue- and by that I mean I feel like I have been shot with a tranquilizer gun.
-all day sickness
-the one thing I haven’t experienced yet is sore boobs or growing boobs. I am praying things stay this way, as I already have ginormous boobs and I don’t need any more. Thanks.
Honestly, no one tells you how much the first trimester sucks. I mean, maybe girls did and I just thought they were being dramatic. I didn’t believe it. Or maybe you just don’t know until you know. But it sucks. I know I probably sound ungrateful, but I promise I am not. Every day no matter how bad I am feeling, I take a minute to just be thankful as to where I am at in this pregnancy and on this journey. I am pregnant. I can’t believe I get to say that. So for all you other beautiful, strong, courageous women, Don’t give up. Never stop believing in your miracle. Ours was 5 years in the making.
16 thoughts on “A 9 week Secret.”
Congratulations! And I’m sorry you’re feeling so ill. Every pregnancy is different, so it’s hard to know what to expect. I had a ROUGH time with hyperemesis where I couldn’t keep anything down at all without meds pretty much the entire pregnancy. The meds were life savers and while we had to experiment with a few different things, the one that worked the best was the class A (SAFE) med in the right dosage. Don’t be afraid to ask for some help if you’re struggling to function – a lot of women downplay the severity (because, oh, this must just be “morning sickness”) and can end up dehydrated. That’s the worst feeling ever! I hope you are luckier than me, and it clears up by the end of the first trimester like everyone says it should.
Thanks girly!! I’m not throwing up often, I have only a handful of times, but I finding the constant state of nausea and tiredness is rough. I’m not used to feeling so blah!!
Oh, I’m so glad to hear that it’s not so severe as all day vomiting, but I’m sure the all day queasiness has gotten old fast! That part should definitely get better soon. Here’s to a happy and healthy pregnancy! 🙂
Congratulations! For me the third trimester has been the worst. Feel better soon!
Thank you girly!! Hopefully you don’t have too much longer xoxo
3 or 4 more weeks
Congratulations! I was on tenterhooks for you guys but when I saw you had not posted since your transfer I had my suspicions. Yay! Fantastic news. I would per on a stick every day just for the fun of making it go positive! Another intralipids success story. I don’t know why they do not hurry up and do a randomised control trial on this so it becomes offered as mainstream treatment as there is so much anecdotal stuff about lovely positives. Grow little bean grow!
Awww thank you so much!! That is so sweet you have been following along 🙂 I agree IntraLipids is a miracle and should definetly be more main stream!! Xoxo
I am so happy for you guys!!! Congratulations! I am sending much love and many prayers for a healthy pregnancy physically and emotionally, I know how hard it can be after the struggle. Can’t wait to read updates!!!! Justine
Congratulations!!!!! When are you due? I think you’re only a few days behind me 🙂
Have you tried any medications for the nausea?
Hey! I’m due December 15 🙂 I haven’t tried any meds because I want to be as natural as possible… So if you have any recommendations I have been trying it all!
That’s awesome. I’m due the 12th so literally days difference 🙂 With Luke I wanted to go the au natural route but the sickness got to be too much. Here I sit with this little person attached to a zofran pump. I personally got no relief from any of the “traditional” remedies like ginger, flat Sprite, crackers, sea bands, Preggie pops, or the like. The least medicated Medicine is taking a quarter of a unisome with a b6 capsule. It’s technically diclegis which is a category A drug
Awwwww congratulations!!! How exciting!!! I’m sorry you have had the sickness…I hope it goes away soon, but it is a good sign of a very healthy pregnancy 🙂 Hang in there!!!
Congratulations!!! I am so happy for you! I hope things continue to go well, the boobs stay the same size and the all day sickness goes away very soon!
I Love you Ricky I am so happy crying tears of joy for you and hubs xoxoxo Chloe & the girls